Today I was looking for a jacket to wear and came upon a cream colored one that belonged to my mom. I put it on and it fit perfectly. I smelt it just to make sure it didn't have that old closet smell just to find that it smelt of my mom's perfume. For a split second I saw my mom standing there so close. It was like she was actually there... Needless to say I didn't put my own perfume on it. I miss and love you mom.
Tuesday, November 30, 2010
Memories.
Monday, November 29, 2010
Ruffled
I found this amazing blog, with beautiful wedding pictures from many different photographers. They're so inspiring!
Click on the link ;) ^^
Life... is like a box of chocolates - a cheap, thoughtless, perfunctory gift that no one ever asks for, unreturnable because all you get back is another box of chocolates. So, you're stuck with mostly undefinable whipped mint crap, mindlessly wolfed down when there's nothing else to eat while you're watching the game. Sure, once is a while you get a peanut butter cup or an English toffee but it's gone too fast and the taste is fleeting. In the end, you are left with nothing but broken bits filled with hardened jelly and teeth-shattering nuts, which, if you are desperate enough to eat, leaves nothing but an empty box of useless brown paper. ~The X-Files
Monday, November 22, 2010
Wednesday, November 17, 2010
Even the young know...
*What Does Love Mean?*
A group of professional people posed this question to a group of 4 to 8 year-olds, "What does love mean?" The answers they got were broader and deeper than anyone could have imagined. See what you think:
"When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn't bend over and paint her toenails anymore. So my grandfather does it for her all even when his hands got arthritis, too. That's Love. Rebecca - age 8
When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different. You just know that your name is safe in their mouth." Billy - age 4
"Love is when a girl puts on perfume and a boy puts on shaving cologne and they go out and smell each other." Karl - age 5
"Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your French Fries without making them give you any of theirs." Chrissy - age 6
"Love is what makes you smile when you're tired." Terri - age 4
"Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip before giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK." Danny - age 7
"Love is when you kiss all the time. Then when you get tired of kissing, you still want to be together and you talk more. My Mommy and Daddy are like that. They look gross when they kiss" Emily - age 8
"Love is what's in the room with you at Christmas if you stop opening presents and listen." Bobby - age 7 (Wow!)
"If you want to learn to love better, you should start with a friend who you hate." Nikka - age 6
"Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it
everyday." Noelle - age 7
"Love is like a little old woman and a little old man who are still friends even after they know each other so well." Tommy - age 6
"During my piano recital, I was on a stage and I was scared. I looked at all the people watching me and saw my daddy waving and smiling. He was the only one doing that. I wasn't scared anymore." Cindy - age 8
"My mommy loves me more than anybody. You don't see anyone else kissing me to sleep at night." Clare - age 6
"Love is when Mommy gives Daddy the best piece of chicken." Elaine-age 5
"Love is when Mommy sees Daddy smelly and sweaty and still says he is handsomer than Robert Redford." Chris - age 7
"Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day." Mary Ann - age 4
"I know my older sister loves me because she gives me all her old
clothes and has to go out and buy new ones." Lauren - age 4
"When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little stars come out of you" Karen - age 7
"Love is when Mommy sees Daddy on the toilet and she doesn't think it's gross." Mark - age 6
"You really shouldn't say 'I love you' unless you mean it. But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget," Jessica - age 8
And the final one -- Author and lecturer Leo Buscaglia once talked about contest he was asked to judge. The purpose of the contest was to find the most caring child. (Now this will melt your heart.) The winner was a four year old child whose next door neighbor was an elderly gentleman who had recently lost his wife. Upon seeing the man cry, the little boy went into the old gentleman's yard, climbed onto his lap, and just sat there. When
his Mother asked him what he had said to the neighbor, the little boy said, "Nothing, I just helped him cry."
A group of professional people posed this question to a group of 4 to 8 year-olds, "What does love mean?" The answers they got were broader and deeper than anyone could have imagined. See what you think:
"When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn't bend over and paint her toenails anymore. So my grandfather does it for her all even when his hands got arthritis, too. That's Love. Rebecca - age 8
When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different. You just know that your name is safe in their mouth." Billy - age 4
"Love is when a girl puts on perfume and a boy puts on shaving cologne and they go out and smell each other." Karl - age 5
"Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your French Fries without making them give you any of theirs." Chrissy - age 6
"Love is what makes you smile when you're tired." Terri - age 4
"Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip before giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK." Danny - age 7
"Love is when you kiss all the time. Then when you get tired of kissing, you still want to be together and you talk more. My Mommy and Daddy are like that. They look gross when they kiss" Emily - age 8
"Love is what's in the room with you at Christmas if you stop opening presents and listen." Bobby - age 7 (Wow!)
"If you want to learn to love better, you should start with a friend who you hate." Nikka - age 6
"Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it
everyday." Noelle - age 7
"Love is like a little old woman and a little old man who are still friends even after they know each other so well." Tommy - age 6
"During my piano recital, I was on a stage and I was scared. I looked at all the people watching me and saw my daddy waving and smiling. He was the only one doing that. I wasn't scared anymore." Cindy - age 8
"My mommy loves me more than anybody. You don't see anyone else kissing me to sleep at night." Clare - age 6
"Love is when Mommy gives Daddy the best piece of chicken." Elaine-age 5
"Love is when Mommy sees Daddy smelly and sweaty and still says he is handsomer than Robert Redford." Chris - age 7
"Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day." Mary Ann - age 4
"I know my older sister loves me because she gives me all her old
clothes and has to go out and buy new ones." Lauren - age 4
"When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little stars come out of you" Karen - age 7
"Love is when Mommy sees Daddy on the toilet and she doesn't think it's gross." Mark - age 6
"You really shouldn't say 'I love you' unless you mean it. But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget," Jessica - age 8
And the final one -- Author and lecturer Leo Buscaglia once talked about contest he was asked to judge. The purpose of the contest was to find the most caring child. (Now this will melt your heart.) The winner was a four year old child whose next door neighbor was an elderly gentleman who had recently lost his wife. Upon seeing the man cry, the little boy went into the old gentleman's yard, climbed onto his lap, and just sat there. When
his Mother asked him what he had said to the neighbor, the little boy said, "Nothing, I just helped him cry."
Boys to Girls
Dear Girls (from us guys)...
*Don't assume that guys won't care where you are, because we do.
It makes us feel secure to know that our girlfriends aren't off flirting with guys we've never heard of.
*Also, don't talk about your ex-boyfriends.
We never have, nor ever will respect or like them, nor do we want to hear about them.
When you do, you're asking your boyfriend to be jealous.
You're asking your boyfriend to lose trust.
*On that, don't hump everything that walks into the room.
We don't care if you talk to other guys.
We don't care if you're friends with other guys.
But when you're sitting next to us, and some random guy walks into the room and you jump up and tackle him, without even introducing us, yeah, it pisses us off.
It doesn't help if you sit there and talk to him for ten minutes without even acknowledging the fact that we're still there.
*Also, when we tell you you're pretty/ beautiful/ gorgeous/ cute/ stunning, we freaking mean it.
Don't tell us we're wrong.
We'll stop trying to convince you.
The sexiest thing about a girl is confidence.
Yeah, you can quote me.
*Don't be mad when we hold the door open.
Smile and say "thank you."
Let us pay for you.
Don't "feel bad."
We enjoy doing it.
It's expected.
Smile and say - everybody together now - "thank you."
*Kiss us when no one's watching.
If you kiss us when you know nobody's looking we'll be more impressed.
*You don't have to get dressed up for us.
If we're going out with you in the first place, you don't have to feel the need to wear the shortest skirt you have, put on every kind of makeup you own.
We like you for WHO you are and not WHAT you are.
*Don't flirt with guys when we're not around.
We'll find out. Trust us.
We have eyes everywhere.
And when we find out, we're pissed.
Not necessarily with the guys you flirted with, more-so with you.
*Don't take everything we say seriously.
Sarcasm is a beautiful thing. See the beauty in it.
Don't get angry easily.
Stop using magazines/media as your bible.
*Don't talk about how hot Tom Cruise or Brad Pitt is in front of us.
It's boring, and we don't care.
You have girlfriends for that.
*Whatever happened to the word "handsome"?
Why does everything have to be "hot/sexy"?
I'd be utterly stunned by a girl who greeted me with "Hey handsome!" instead of "Hey baby/ stud/ cutie/ sexy" or whatever else you can think of.
Claiming girls or guys to be "hot" shows immaturity.
**Girls, I cannot stress this enough: if you aren't being treated right by a guy, don't wait for him to change.
Ditch his sorry, disgrace-to-the-male-population ass, and find someone who will treat you with utter respect.
Someone who will honor your morals.
Someone who will make you smile when you're at your lowest.
*Don't assume that guys won't care where you are, because we do.
It makes us feel secure to know that our girlfriends aren't off flirting with guys we've never heard of.
*Also, don't talk about your ex-boyfriends.
We never have, nor ever will respect or like them, nor do we want to hear about them.
When you do, you're asking your boyfriend to be jealous.
You're asking your boyfriend to lose trust.
*On that, don't hump everything that walks into the room.
We don't care if you talk to other guys.
We don't care if you're friends with other guys.
But when you're sitting next to us, and some random guy walks into the room and you jump up and tackle him, without even introducing us, yeah, it pisses us off.
It doesn't help if you sit there and talk to him for ten minutes without even acknowledging the fact that we're still there.
*Also, when we tell you you're pretty/ beautiful/ gorgeous/ cute/ stunning, we freaking mean it.
Don't tell us we're wrong.
We'll stop trying to convince you.
The sexiest thing about a girl is confidence.
Yeah, you can quote me.
*Don't be mad when we hold the door open.
Smile and say "thank you."
Let us pay for you.
Don't "feel bad."
We enjoy doing it.
It's expected.
Smile and say - everybody together now - "thank you."
*Kiss us when no one's watching.
If you kiss us when you know nobody's looking we'll be more impressed.
*You don't have to get dressed up for us.
If we're going out with you in the first place, you don't have to feel the need to wear the shortest skirt you have, put on every kind of makeup you own.
We like you for WHO you are and not WHAT you are.
*Don't flirt with guys when we're not around.
We'll find out. Trust us.
We have eyes everywhere.
And when we find out, we're pissed.
Not necessarily with the guys you flirted with, more-so with you.
*Don't take everything we say seriously.
Sarcasm is a beautiful thing. See the beauty in it.
Don't get angry easily.
Stop using magazines/media as your bible.
*Don't talk about how hot Tom Cruise or Brad Pitt is in front of us.
It's boring, and we don't care.
You have girlfriends for that.
*Whatever happened to the word "handsome"?
Why does everything have to be "hot/sexy"?
I'd be utterly stunned by a girl who greeted me with "Hey handsome!" instead of "Hey baby/ stud/ cutie/ sexy" or whatever else you can think of.
Claiming girls or guys to be "hot" shows immaturity.
**Girls, I cannot stress this enough: if you aren't being treated right by a guy, don't wait for him to change.
Ditch his sorry, disgrace-to-the-male-population ass, and find someone who will treat you with utter respect.
Someone who will honor your morals.
Someone who will make you smile when you're at your lowest.
Tuesday, November 16, 2010
Love Love Love
Just so you know, there's a space that only you can fill. Just so you know I loved you then I guess I always will.
Monday, November 15, 2010
Sunday, November 14, 2010
The Truth
Kris Allen; The Truth.
Lyin' next to you
Wishing I could disappear...aay
Let you fall asleep
And vanish out into thin air..aay
It's the elephant in the room
And we pretend that we don't see it.
It's the avalanche that looms above our heads.
And we don't believe it.
Tryin' to be perfect
Tryin' not to let you down...ooww
Honesty is honestly the hardest thing for me right now...yeah
while the floors underneath our feet are crumbling
The walls we built together tumblin'
I still stand here holdin' up the roof
Cause it's easier than telling the truth.
I still keep your photographs
I remember how we used to laugh
I can keep on losin' sleep
If you're okay with being torn in half.
It's the elephant in the room
And we pretend that we don't see it.
It's an avalanche that looms above our heads
But we don't believe it.
Tryin' to be perfect, tryin' not to let you down...oww
Honesty is honestly the hardest thing for me right now...yeah
While the floors underneath our feet are crumblin'
The walls we built together tumblin'
I still stand here holdin' up the roof
Cause it's easier than telling the truth.
Stop ignoring that our hearts are mourning
http://www.elyricsworld.com/the_truth_lyrics_kris_allen.html
And let the rain come in.
Stop pretending that it's not ending
And let the end begin.
Oh yeah...
Tryin' to be perfect, tryin' not to let you down...yeah
Honesty is honestly the hardest thing for me right now...yeah
While the floors underneath our feet are crumblin'
The walls we built together tumblin'
I still stand here holdin' up the roof
Cause it's easier than telling the truth.
It's easier than telling the truth...
Wishing I could disappear...aay
Let you fall asleep
And vanish out into thin air..aay
It's the elephant in the room
And we pretend that we don't see it.
It's the avalanche that looms above our heads.
And we don't believe it.
Tryin' to be perfect
Tryin' not to let you down...ooww
Honesty is honestly the hardest thing for me right now...yeah
while the floors underneath our feet are crumbling
The walls we built together tumblin'
I still stand here holdin' up the roof
Cause it's easier than telling the truth.
I still keep your photographs
I remember how we used to laugh
I can keep on losin' sleep
If you're okay with being torn in half.
It's the elephant in the room
And we pretend that we don't see it.
It's an avalanche that looms above our heads
But we don't believe it.
Tryin' to be perfect, tryin' not to let you down...oww
Honesty is honestly the hardest thing for me right now...yeah
While the floors underneath our feet are crumblin'
The walls we built together tumblin'
I still stand here holdin' up the roof
Cause it's easier than telling the truth.
Stop ignoring that our hearts are mourning
http://www.elyricsworld.com/the_truth_lyrics_kris_allen.html
And let the rain come in.
Stop pretending that it's not ending
And let the end begin.
Oh yeah...
Tryin' to be perfect, tryin' not to let you down...yeah
Honesty is honestly the hardest thing for me right now...yeah
While the floors underneath our feet are crumblin'
The walls we built together tumblin'
I still stand here holdin' up the roof
Cause it's easier than telling the truth.
It's easier than telling the truth...
Prayers
The hardest thing I've ever gone through in my life is losing my mom. She was my best friend. It's just as hard to see some of my closest friends lose parents. It tears me apart knowing someone else has to go through what I did. It's not fair for someone to have to grow up without a parent. It seems like these last few months a lot of parents have died. It breaks my heart to watch the children of them go through it... Knowing I can relate to how their feeling breaks me apart because I know it hurts. I'm always here for anyone whos lost a parent, or anyone. It's hard but it does get easier. It may be one step forward and two steps back right now.. but you eventually make progress. They're always looking down on you smiling. This worlds a rough place, so just know they're in a better place. My prayers go out to the Martin Family. Tyler, know you're a big part of my life and if you ever need anything don't hesitate to ask. You're mom would be proud of the son she's raised. So smile and keep your head high. Love You Tyler.
Saturday, November 13, 2010
Beauty And The Beast.
Tonight, was a night I never expected. The guy I thought was gone for good spent all day and night with me. We watched Beauty and the Beast on his couch. We then spent hours upon hours catching up on everything we'd missed. It not only brought me closer to him but truly made me realize he's exactly what I want. He catches me off guard, and is everything I didn't expect. Great day and night to what I hope is a good week :)
"I want adventure in the great wide somewhere. I want it more than I can tell. And for once it might be grand, to have someone understand... I want so much more than they've got planned." - Belle
Goodbye...
"There's two ways to look at life; Lifes way to short to start crap and Lifes to short to take crap."
"I'm sorry sometimes I get a little jealous, thinking that someone else could make you happier then I could. I guess its my insecurities acting up. Because I know I'm not the prettiest, smartest or most fun and exciting girl. But I do know no matter how long and hard you look, You'll never find someone that loves you like I do."
"Destiny is for losers. It's just a stupid excuse to wait for
things to happen instead of making them happen."
"Sometimes dreams are the only thing that keeps us alive."
"You're the best thing I never knew I needed. Now it's so clear, I need you here."
"There's no rest for the reckless who run into love
Will you scream when your alone? Even the beautiful lost control."
"I miss you even when you're around."
"There are still a few men who love desperately."
"I watch the sky turn light blue, but its not the same without you."
"I love sleep, my life has a tendency to fall apart when I'm awake."
"Things to do today: 1. Get up, 2. Survive, 3. Go back to bed."
"I love everything you hate about yourself."
"If I don't write to empty my mind, I go mad."
"Gravity is not responsible for people falling in love."
Friday, November 12, 2010
Truth.
These past few weeks haven't been that great. It seems like a lot of my closet friends have turned against me. I've learned who my true friends are and learned that the true friends I have will always be there for me. Me and my friends go through a lot, but a lot never tore us apart. The friends I've lost... I miss. But I'm not going to go begging for the friendship if they don't want it to begin with. I really wish my mom was here because she'd know exactly what to do or say to may things okay. She's a big part of my life but I wish moe then anything that she as here. I don't have that mom that I can go talk to and hang out with. And that's what I miss the most. She was and still is my best friend, and I miss her more then anything in the world. Sometimes I just want to stop and take a deep breath and cry for a whole day to make up for all the crying I held in. I'm praying for a better weekend and week.
-------------------------------------------------------------------------------On the brighter note, I was some what cheered up by a friend I didn't know I had. She told me my blogs and statuses related to her and inspired her so much. It feels good to know I'm helping someone without even knowing it. And it meant a lot knowing it. It's the little things like that, that make life so much better. Thank you L. ♥
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"I'm scared to see you with someone else."
"No Love Found, No Love Lost."
"Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to
doesn't mean they're not loving you will have they have."
"I hate seeing you again, cause you bring back the feelings, I tried so hard to forget."
"Life is about finding yourself. Life is about creating yourself."
"Enjoy the little things in life because one day you'll look back and realize they're the big things."
"Live as if you'll die tomorrow. Dream as if you'll live forever."
"We both know life is short, to short to waste one single second
with anyone who doesn't appreciate or value you."
"Perfect couldn't keep this love alive."
"If there ever comes a day when we can't be together, Keep me in your heart. I'll stay there Forever."
"You were my beginning my middle and my end. "
"Life doesn't hurt until you think about how much things have changed,
who've you lost along the way, and how much of it was your fault."
"Learn to make yourself happy."
"You voice reminds me of my favorite song."
Thursday, November 11, 2010
Past is Past.
"I'm finally letting go of the past that I've held onto for so long."
"You can take my heart and soul but you'll never take the voice that told it all."
"And I'm finally walking away. The rear view mirrors busted and I've drained out the sound of your voice. I'm done with the past and I'm not looking back."
"Never let the hand you hold, hold you back."
"& I hate realizing what I missed out on. I love you now, you loved me then, you love her now."
Wednesday, November 10, 2010
Beauty in the Making.
Here's to the crazy ones. The misfits. The rebels. The troublemakers. The square pegs in round holes. The ones who see things differently. They aren't fond of rules, and they have no respect for status quota. You can quote them, disagree with them, glorify or vilify them, but the one thing you can't do is ignore them because they change things. They push the human race forward and while some see crazy ones - we see genius, because the ones who are crazy enough to think that can change the world, are the ones that do.
There's one thing a quote does that nothing and no one else can do... it can become a part of you. You may never meet the person who said it but that person is now a companion. Quotes help you get over pain, feel love, make you smile and laugh, and helps you through those though tough days when you think that no one knows what you're going through.
Friends. A simple word isn't it? It's uttered everyday to almost every person imaginable. Who are your friends? I used to think that friends were the people that you could laugh and talk to. Now I know that friends aren't that, they're the people that touch your hearts. You could spend hours with them doing nothing at all and it can be the best time of your life, just because it was with them. They're the people you can share your secrets with, cry with, laugh with, and just have fun with. They don't judge you or make you change. They accept you exactly as you are. They look at you and they see a great person, one they love spending time with. You all share something in common and are tied together by memories, tears, laughs, and smiles. You're tied together by love for the other. Friendship is the strangest but greatest thing in the world. I find my time with my friends, the best times of my life. My friends are my heart, my soul, my fun, my laughter, tears, love and my life.
** I got bored in 3rd period today, and found out Blogger wasn't blocked. totally made my day!
Tuesday, November 9, 2010
Beauty In The Making.
I love love love photography, its something I can see myself doing as a career. I took this one, this past weekend and thought I'd share :) Seemed like a good picture for a first post.
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